in a late evening... ( just whats in my mind and letting it out)

Who are we...
we are only humans...
we hurt.. we care...
we love... we hate...
we see... we do...
we misinterpret... we misunderstood...
we pride... we lust..
we are passionate ... we are lazy...
we lead... we follow...
we be... we are...
we meant good... we got mistranslated...
we meant bad... we got appraised...
we praise... we shy....
we criticize... we smile...
we didnt meant the words we say... but we meant to deliver it...
but why is it that... we know... we know and ... we know...
but why.... does it still happen...
you know whats right and wrong... you know whats morally rite or wrong...
but i cant seem to understand... y is it so hard...
for us to be kind... for us to see the light...
we see the light... we want the light... but its so hard to achieve...
it hurts... the road taken... it hurts...
when u see with your eyes... the challenges that you see....
sometimes the simplest thing in life makes us smile...
sometimes the smallest thing in life pisses us off....
we fail to see what was so important... only realizing when its not there anymore...
y are we so blind at times... you dont know where to go anymore...
you want to go down that path... sometimes u feel weak...
u question... u doubt... u still searched for it tirelessly...
but when you see around you... of what u used to be and u like so much...
its so hard to change to the better good...
u tried controlling yourself... u tried to contain it... u tried so hard... so very very hard...
bcause its not there... its not infront of your eyes... for u to be able to interact... to communicate... to know its real and there waiting for you... u only know and have a belief that its there...
the price of faith and belief .... is it worth it... will it bring meaning...
u feel vulnerable... and defensive... u create a layer of personality to cover the sad and distrought self inside...
and when that layer falls not able to contain the bursting pressure... u just lose it...