My Vanilla Twilight

The stars lean down to kiss you,And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere,'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me,I'd send a postcard to you, dear
'Cause I wish you were here
I'll watch the night turn light-blue,But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly
The silence isn't so bad,'Til I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers,Are right where yours fit perfectly
I'll find repose in new ways,Though I have slept in two days
'Still cold nostalgia,Chills me to the bone
But drenched in vanilla twilight,I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because,When I think of you I don't feel so alone
I don't feel so alone, I don't feel so alone
As many times as I blink,I'll think of you tonight,I'll think of you tonight
When violet eyes get brighter,And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again
And I'll forget the world that I knew,But I swear I won't forget you
Oh, if my voice could reach,Far into life
I'd whisper in your ear,Oh darling, I'm right over here


n_n
Give me some sunshine, Give me some rain
Give me another chance, I wanna grow up once again
I have been given that, Im Taking It

Valentines Day...

Hey, just came back from khutbah jumaat just now and it was a speech on valentines day,

particularly interesting but ha3 -_-" i slept near the very end...

but it got me thinking...

islam mudah dan praktikal, janganlah kita mempermudahkan ia pula...

dan didalam islam, tiada istilah haram untuk mempamerkan rase kasih sayang diantara insan,

cuma perlulah melalui saluran yang betul...

and i was wondering...

saluran yang betul ialah melalui perkahwinan...

tetapi, apabila kita sudah ada hati kepada jantina yang berlawanan, itu merupakan fitrah,

lelaki diciptakan untuk tertarik kepada kaum hawa, manakala wanita pula tertarik kepada kaum adam,

jika difikir-fikirkan kembali...

saye ... x taulah...

kalau jalan dah ada untuk kita lalui...

kenapa kita di halang untuk mengambil jalan itu?

adakah sistem dunia yang menghalangnya? ataupun pemahaman kita?

i was questioning furiously inside my mind...

during our prophets era, education was emphasized but not towards our extent now, we learaned what we are interested in... not what was set up by the country...

i mean... is there sumthing wrong in getting married at 18? it would defy the norm of our society, but isn that the way of islam to show our expression of love to the opposite gender, and you need to bear the responsibility for sure, to support your loved ones? you can still study as usual, perhaps stay with your parents still but it would definitely curb all the gejala sosial happening around us wouldnt it? If we were allowed to get married sooner, teens dating would already be a legit couple bonded by marriage. The society wouldnt think that is wrong? you know where im going ryte?  To think how much problem we could solve...

..

n_n me and my carzy mind...

it wouldnt the sistem of our country and our society...

it would just make u be dicriminated around...

just my silly thoughts above...

but im curious to the answers..

hahahahaha xD

~ aal izz well ~

Let Me...

Let me just say...

That... 

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to write a blog...

you need a song to a company you...

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n_n

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de javu... karma... 

what are them anyway...

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Linkin Park - In Between

When choosing between two goods or two lesser evils....

theres a saying ive heard before, its pretty funny actually...
"when you have to choose between two evils, pick the one you havent done before". xD
i dont know whats the basis of this saying but it those brings to you a logical sense to it...
if you know you are going to do something evil or naughty perhaps, u already know its wrong, if ur going to do it, make it worth it, whats the point of doing the same evil?  you wont grow n_n...
 but there is always another choice... another option... Dont choose at all....
but... its a different cse if ... its between two goods / lesser evils...
they are the choice that will determine and change your life...
and there is no esaping... u must mke it...
Its when you are faced with this that you are tried so hard... you get pushed to the edge... ur kicked out of your comfort zone... you'll hardly feel at ease... u will always be haunted... be watched... be thinking about it... for the rest of your life... it will be a determinential split of your walk of life... you will hardly be the same...
you follow your routine life style... and you realized its not in line with your new road... u try to change slowly...
but the roads just keep coming... you know you wont mke it if u change too fast... ull be ripped a part... u cant change too slow either... u'll be left behind so far... you have to find the moderate way... the hard part of life... its easy to fall between two extremes... but not so easy to fall into moderateness... but time waits for no one...
its so sad... that time itself does not give you the chance to get back up in your own sweet time... its a painful fact... its the truth... its all up to you... you can depend on people so much... but YOU are the one... YOU write about your life... This is your story... it aint easy.... to be the author, the main character, to twist your own plot, to implement your own values and principles, to present lessons, to represent your society and most importantly... to  make your CHOICE... its always wise to be wise... it is always good to be good...its always kind to be kind.... make a choice... you cant get both of them... at the same time... you will however... get them both at different times... When choosing between 2 goods or 2 lesser evils... close your eyes... place your hand at you heart and whisper... " aal izz well"... then... make the choice... Itll be the choice of your lives...

in a late evening... ( just whats in my mind and letting it out)

Who are we...
we are only humans...
we hurt.. we care...
we love... we hate...
we see... we do...
we misinterpret... we misunderstood...
we pride... we lust..
we are passionate ... we are lazy...
we lead... we follow...
we be... we are...
we meant good... we got mistranslated...
we meant bad... we got appraised...
we praise... we shy....
we criticize... we smile...
we didnt meant the words we say... but we meant to deliver it...
but why is it that... we know... we know and ... we know...
but why.... does it still happen...
you know whats right and wrong... you know whats morally rite or wrong...
but i cant seem to understand... y is it so hard...
for us to be kind... for us to see the light...
we see the light... we want the light... but its so hard to achieve...
it hurts... the road taken... it hurts...
when u see with your eyes... the challenges that you see....
sometimes the simplest thing in life makes us smile...
sometimes the smallest thing in life pisses us off....
we fail to see what was so important... only realizing when its not there anymore...
y are we so blind at times... you dont know where to go anymore...
you want to go down that path... sometimes u feel weak...
u question... u doubt... u still searched for it tirelessly...
but when you see around you... of what u used to be and u like so much...
its so hard to change to the better good...
u tried controlling yourself... u tried to contain it... u tried so hard... so very very hard...
bcause its not there... its not infront of your eyes... for u to be able to interact... to communicate... to know its real and there waiting for you... u only know and have a belief that its there...
the price of faith and belief .... is it worth it... will it bring meaning...
u feel vulnerable... and defensive... u create a layer of personality to cover the sad and distrought self inside...
and when that layer falls not able to contain the bursting pressure... u just lose it...

yes =)

yes... so true...
the path... it hurts...
bad things are so enticing... good things needs patience... faith... and belief...
as we change our path towards HIS,
may we be blessed for experiencing it sooner than others...
I'm happy...
bt... my work is not done...
dis is not the end...
my road... has just begun...
thank you to you...
May excellence strive you forward...
you have shown me true strength... courage... understanding...
slowly... we will heal.. slowly... we will undestand...
slowly... our future will be revealed...

._.

my heart is beating irregularly...
it still is...

Jaane Nahin Denge

It wasnt easy i swear...
it hurt it did...
The path that im taking im not too sure if its the right 1 for me...
easily misunderstood i am im aware...
but to be frank... i misunderstooded too...
how your soul was touched...
how your mind was confused...
It was the right thing to do...
a victim of circumstances we are...
i was weak... too weak to swim above the circumstance...
engulfed by it i did...
i never meant it this way....
it was a hard decision...
bt...
ill be back... stronger... better than ever...
capable enough to lead... humble enough to be...
remember.... four two...
you can say anything you want... but ...
theorizing... empathizing... sympathizing...
are not comparable to being in it...
ill remember... always...
always...