Hey...

See you soon...

I succumb...

Please... give me peace...

Amin...

Joke of the century

Haule haule ='}}}

Interesting Perspective...

EEYYYYAAAAHHHH!!!

time to face it!

Hu3 I know what lies ahead...

turbulence... tornadoes... hurricanes... thunderstorms... heat... cold... hail storms... blizzards...

OUHHH~ X____X so many are my trials...

so many things are coming... lurking... haunting... praying... failing...

pray that i find the strength to make it out...

give me strength... give me hope... give me reality... 

give me power... give me preserverance... give me love... give me myself...

WARRRRGGGGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Woooahhh...

I'll carry on with this burden on my back...

bt... I do not ask for expectations... I ask... for me to give my best...

I do not ask for judgement... I ask for understanding... I do not ask for blame... I ask for care...

Please... just be there what ever happens to me...

Even if I turned out bad... or I turned out good...

Just be there... just be there... just be there...

it means so much more...

Hope I am this innovative... XD

Yeah...

Thats it then...

God willing now...

its time...

lets go...

n_n

~Heart And Soul I Am Yours~ ( pic name )
Always In Memories

Looking back...

Looking back...

MRSM Kuala Kubu Bharu...

was the best time of my life...

with the teachers... friends... environment... experiences...

I cherished every moment here...

what it was like to love and beloved...

what it was like to have the best friend ever beside you...

doesn't matter the time nor place...

what it was like to have a teacher to look up to and be a role model for you...

what it was like to venture out into other places...

what it was like to break curfew and eat mangoes...

what it was like to lie in the dark and look at the stars...

what it was like to kantoi with pak guard and water war inside the toilets...

what it was like to pass notes and exchange gifts...

what it was like to have a companion that was there...

KKB... i felt home there...

The happiest i have been...

was in...

Penang

there were times of troubles there...

but... the happiest i have ever been...

the memories... the times...

the moments... the experiences...

the places... the people...

the company... the events that took place...

the warmth... the love... the company...

it was the best...

it made me whole... it made me complete...

it made me feel so at home...

the sacrifices that had been taken to get there...

and the time spent...

will always be etched to my mind and soul...

kept in my heart... listening and reviewing day and night...

it was not right... it was not wrong... it was just right there...

the moment that was meant to be... how i kept wishing...

wishing that time will stop... for the time that was...

for the happiest moment I have ever been in my life...

Sitting alone...

covered by four walls with no windows...

but just a door to the outside world...

barricaded by gates and other doors...

surrounded by memories... i will never let go...

for they are a part of me... 

which makes who i am...

I think... therefore...

I am

Mohabbatein

"Love is just like life, it's not always easy and it does not always bring happiness. But, when we do not stop living, why should we stop loving." - Raj Aryan -

There's... something special in these stories that i see in Bollywood movies that I do not get in Western Movies, or any other movies in fact - for now, It's the missing element. Something that I can relate to and immerse myself in the full emotions of the characters and the messages and values that it tries to delivers. Western movies are very entertaining and fun to watch, but it won't impact me much personally, not because of poor acting or bad directors, but due to the major and vast differences in culture and status quo of a given society. When watching movies, I want to be inspired, to be moved, to be swept of my feet and feel something new rather than just a short lived enjoyment even if its just a grain of life lesson's I'd be contented.

Mohabbatein... did that for me...

Its not that complicated really...

Shah Rukh always impresses me with his acting. ( which reminded me to download the ost hehehe ) The story itself has a lot of fruits that if we take it to heart, reflect upon it more than just touch the surface but peer into the deeper depth of the iceberg, you will never live a life o regrets.

Treading this road of life I'm still quiet naive and young, barely 19, who am I to say I know everything? but then whom are you others guys to say that I didnt do what my heart said was right? Its a conundrum so to speak but almost 20 years of living and 10 years of memories, i believe a lot of life's lesson we have picked up approaching adulthood. You... me... us... all of us... we have learned a lot from life. Being the human that we are, we sometimes forget the lessons that we have picked up - sometimes of that that meant a lot. This is where movies come in to remind... to rediscover... to reveal... to reinforce... to project... lessons... ideas... opinions... beliefs... principles... of life... living... loving... with the one thing that makes you who you are... Your Heart... Soul... Spirit... Consciousness... that nobody else can define for you.

There are just so much... in this movie that makes you smile... mourn... giggle... feeling all melancholic ... makes you wonder... awed... amazed... and taps you in the heart...
Thank you for recommending it to me and ...
there are a lot of resemblance ... so much... (:
but... do u dare make the choice?
a choice by heart... which is so crazy... but the world is mad all over heart itself...

Follow your heart...
In my opinion... you'll never regret it...
=)

Always...

Daniel Bedingfield - If you're not the one

Okay, I wanted to sort of break down this song in my own views and personal experience...
Truthfully... I'm a bit scared to write this out... but what the heck... (: I'll write it anyway...

Alrighty then, here's the song lyrics aiyte

If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?


- I guess this one is pretty self explanatory. You know the feeling that you have always in your heart, sumtimes you forget its there but when its gone you realize it?, the warmth of company and the thought of tranquility that someone cares for you and you care for them back? The upright soul that constantly seek a companion and feeling glad that it have found one. Its a good feeling that you sort of anticipate through out the day for the rest of your life, Through simple or even complicated mediums nor methods.

If you're not the one then why does my hand fits yours this way?


- This part, is about complimenting each other. From a simple action of just embracing hands, a loving hug and so on to other parts allowed after marriages hehehe but basically how you sort of compliment one another.

If you're not mine then why does your heart returns my call?


If you're not mine would I have the strength to stand at all?


I never know what the future brings, But I know you're here with me now
We'll make it through, And I hope you're the one that I share my life with

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I... couldnt write further...
I dont know why... It just wouldnt do justice...
to you... to me... to the rest of the world...
first attempt ryte... what'd i expect ha3
but yeah... some of the part in this song trult says whats lingering and wondering in our heads sometimes...
Currently I cant say that most of this song, or any song infact, I agree to wholly but certain parts of it does makes the heart and soul says "yeah... thats what it is"...
so... i guess i'll just stop it there...
kinda like most of the post that you type then sort of wouldnt like to publish, but i decided to carry on hahaha
so perhaps some other time with some other song...
till then, (:
l8r ...

ps, It's you... It's you... It's just you... kinda admire your strength... seriously... seeing you past post... knowing you now... how great you are... even without me around... I just... couldn't do the same... you... deserve it all and so much more...
you make me proud of yourself... you make me happy of yourself... you make me smile of yourself... you... you... you... you are very special and amazing...

Haste

CHARGE!!!

" Haste Makes Waste "

A quote I've almost forgotten (:

I've realized that... there's no point in making haste and rushing things right.

Whats the benefit? Sure, you get to take action quickly but the consequences that you have to face will be exponentially proportional with the time you take to implement the action.

( someone will be so confused )

I am a living confusion, making mistakes as i go ha3 but nonetheless whats life without mistakes n_n

must be peaceful, ho3

I am sorry to all the parties that got into trouble because of me... whether near or far... close at heart or far from the eyes... whether whom I love , I like, I know... Families, Friends, lover... I'm so sorry... but an apology would never be enough and i owe all of you big time...

Coming back again to " haste "

I've just came back from 2 places...

McDonalds at Carefour and Masjid As-Sobirin from Friday Prayers.

McDonalds at Carefour - 

I was going around Care4 as i had to send my fathers car for polishing here and had to wait for two hours. I walked around all over and sat down at McD for a snack of Fillet o Fish just for the heck of it.

I can't help but see and observe other people, getting lessons out of them, "berangan"  A LOT , and keep pondering and talking to oneself. I see that a guy in a group of girls will be so quiet and not be able to talk much while the girls wont stop talking and pay no attention to the guy, ( experienced it myself in Chemistry remedial class, was the only guy from my class and the others were girls, the teacher too!) Life can also throw you lemons... Big Lemons... I saw an Indian Girl with her friend only that i guess she was a victim of arson or perhaps electric eletrocution as her skin was burnt and now slowly recovering and healing n_n she was enjoying her McD as any other lass was... Walking around care4, i wanted so much, but i dont think that i needed them all... If I had money... enough in my bank for future uses and to support myself and families ( once i have one ) I'd surely brought them just because i can hahaha3 

Masjid As-Sobirin-

Owh Yeah...

Right after going to care4, i directly headed for friday prayers. I had to take the car as my dad was going on the bike and i would stay long after prayers to indulge myself with HIM. Finding a parking spot was hard. How roads converged into single lanes and how traffic was ideally meant for two cars to pass turned into one, and it wasn't one way either. I parked a good 3 blocks of houses away just for an easy in and out. I walked to the mosque, took my wudhuk, sat down and listen to the khutbah ( was about respecting leaders i think, only got the end part )  prayed, and there was a solat jenazah and after that i sat down at a corner beside the tabung masjid and reflected upon myself on what i saw around me and about life for a while. How we find strength in HIM, how we hope and rely on HIM so much to give us strength, How others too... find the same strength within him. after most of the patrons of the mosque started to leave, I went to the first row of the saff and had my moment with GOD. A solat hajat with my own mix of selected verses that i find pleasing and raised my hand for my wish... my hopes... my dreams... my strength... 

Which I finally come to the conclusion that...

haste really makes waste, hasty judgement won't benefit you...

Its easy to be engulfed by fear, by jealousy, by emotions... it cloudens the heart...

The Power Of Now... Observe, be an observer of your mind and emotions... acknowledge them... dont deny them... Whats important is the heart... the soul... the spirit... and haste leave them behind... tread at your own pace in life... (= Act upon yourself, not upon others... Stay and be true... :) love life, live life, love love itself...

Haste... use it wisely hehehe

7 Years...

Hmmm...

7 years... thats...

84 months...

2555 days...

61320 hours...

3679200 minutes...

and 220752000 seconds...

( calculation may not be precise, but do roughly seem like it ngeh3 )

wow... look at the figures...

kinda big aint it...

n_n

Imagine what could happen in all those times...

Many many many things are bound to come rolling in from there on...

Some make it... some don't... 

Hum hain raahi pyar ke, phir milenge chalte chalte

Imagine how far apart we are, not only by distance,but also time.

... giving that a thought... 

There is always a lot of ways to view things...

you can view it from many perspectives, and from different lenses.

You can view it from other people views and experiences, you can see it from your own principles and beliefs.

None of them are right and none of them are wrong...

Its all perspectives... If there was only one right way... many of us would end up as screw ups but that doesn't happen. If there was only one wrong way... Most of us would have been successful and living the life that we wanted and chased down what we wished... There are only degrees of truth that brings light upon everything and every choice that we make... and all we have to do... is be responsible for our choice and be ready to face and except the consequences... Be ready to sacrifice and let go of opportunity costs.

And... Here's my view...

I've done a lot of wrong things... I've made mistakes... I've made bad decision... I've made poor judgement... I've learnt a lot of things too... Through my mistakes... through my sidesteps... I slowly learn and grow...

Who are we but learners in life... The things that are done right are usually not noticed yeah... until they goes wrong...

Imagine... 7 years... A lot can happen...

:)

Imagine 7 years of being together... every second of everyday we are close and always in touch...

knowing ... understanding... feeling... always know whats the state of the other side... we will need time of separation so that we can feel the " missing you " emotion, but neither do we lose hope of losing each other

Like the earth and the seas... they might be apart but are always connected... helping each other... in good times or bad... global warming or even the ice age... always there... lending a hand and shoulder...

(:

Imagine 7 years of waiting... every second of everyday we are wondering... thinking and pondering... not knowing the truth... only know and makes assumptions... never truly knows and keeps on putting up a mask... Like the earth and the stars... every night they are always there... but... what can the stars do?... be a silent observer and only a source of wonder to the earth... The earth keeps peering up at the stars... wondering how is it there... so beautiful and bright... so strong and shiny... while the earth are facing all the global issues of war and diseases with wide spread terror and problems... The stars... keeps looking at the earth... How serene it is... calm and tranquil the big blue planet... third rock from the sun... but... the star is lonely too... so far apart from each other... in the depths of space... cut from interaction... merely sending beams of light and gravity waves... 

Thats just my view and belief... There are many more perception and perspectives...

n_n what do you think? 

Musical Truth

I have been tuning on only to music for the past few days.
I seem to have found something that strikes me as familiar once again.
Could there be a grain of truth in every musical lyrics that correlates to everyday life experiences?

" Music Is Love In Search Of Words "

Listening to the words... Reflecting upon them... Does bring up something...
I intend to break down lyrics of songs that I listen too and start to really appreciate the beauty of it and the truth hidden behind it
You can find a lot of quotes and sayings especially among teenagers that music is a major part of their life.
It is also a part of mine too.
Music have been existing since eons of our existence. It have always been a part of culture and daily experiences of people all around the globe. They provide a pair of binoculars to peer into the human soul and understand what we are experiencing and give us a sense of belonging, a sense of hope, something to hold on to, to face the situation that we are facing.

If... the songs that we tune in too... had only words and no tune... we would experience  a lot less....
If... the tune that we tune in too... had no words but only musical melody... our insides would be triggered and you can feel a vibration in your hearts that directly touches your soul... but no words to describe your experience.
Thats why you need to have both... And the best song that truly stirs your emotions are the ones that contains all the words that your looking for mixed with the precise tune that shall bring the whole piece up to another level.

Perhaps in my next psot, I'm going to break down songs...
Break it down to it essence and try to understand what it means and relate it to my life...
What I've experienced... My hopes and dreams... My fears...
(:
Ps; I've got so much to write on, so many things to share, I wont hesitate no more n_n