Turbulence getting rough...

It was not an easy step

Nor was it an easy thing to do

nor you might even face

but today

It went sky high

Maybe because of

what I did not do

may be because of

who i just am

Maybe because of

my overly sensitive side

what was i to do

I had no aptitude for it

to satisfy your expectations nor demands

I am just being who I am to my best

you busy yourself with maintaining the utmost excellent standard

you busy yourself claiming that it is for our best

you busy yourself chasing us for imploring

you busy yourself caring for us thinking your right and what you've been through is the right one

Have you been considering all of these?

I see you as stakeholders in your position as somebody, but do you see others too?

Do you bother putting yourself in my place

do you bother seeing yourself in my perspective

do you?

This is my far cry

of not the truth but a turbulent soul

You will I believe

claim I am 

naive

egoistic

idealistic

emotional

close minded

unrealistic

wrong

etc

for you have a greater understanding and know more and even experienced more

but what i say...

I now feel...

happy

sad

pilu

sayu

serabut

cuak

uncertain

alone

lonely

etc

may be a far cry for attention

a cry baby

of a weak soul

being a pessimist

But all i have for now

is but a turbulent soul...